Friday, September 14, 2012

Squish

This is the first day.  This is the day I went into get squished.  I had found a couple lumps in my right breast.  Just lumpy, bumpy, fibrosis shit, I thought.  But I didn't like the way the doctor was talking, didn't like her language.

"The right one, that looks fine, just fibroid lumps.  But this left one.  I don't like this one.  See these dots, all in a row.  Nature doesn't do that.  I don't like that.  Let's take a look and make a plan."

I got the "close up" mammogram.   

......let's take a look and make a plan.  NOT lets make a plan to take a look.

I think she knew I had cancer that day.  I think I knew I had cancer that day.

We made a plan to do biopsies.  Biopsies.  Four on one side, one on the "questionable side".

We made a plan to take a look.