Diagnosis Part 2

I have Grade One Stage One Invasive Ductile Carcinoma that is Estrogen receptor positive.

So.  MRI on Friday (Tomorrow), Surgery next week.  (Hopefully).  I am in a research study for a one shot Radiation treatment during my lumpectomy.  They will also be doing a touch prep gross evaluation while I am asleep.

Hopefully, that will be all I need unless tests come back indicating I need Chemo.  I will be on Tamoxifen for a very long time (possibly forever.).

I have to start thinking about if I want to keep my lady parts.  Regardless of the Tamoxifen.

I can still have coffee and a drink if I would like!!!  (for the time being.)


That's all I got for now.

Cry me a river

Felt more like crying a river than river walking.  Only made it through about 20 min of water walking class this morning.  Walked as stoically as possible to the locker room and cried for 20 more.

Probably just over tired.

Health history

Must do current and past health history today.  Surgeon tomorrow.  Did not sleep last night.

Dreamed of an old lover.

My Dentist Sent Me Flowers

I love the people at my dental office.  I went in to check on when my last work was and I told them I had cancer.  The cancer.

I don't have time for cancer.  I had time to stop in and tell them though.  I tell everyone.  It's like being pregnant, only in a negative way.  People respond the same way.  "OH WOW, how do you feel?" Just like when I was pregnant.

Tired

Tired, almost to the point of falling over.  Always at 2:30p.

Foot hurts.  Tomorrow will be better.  Seeing Judy for Lunch and Acupuncture (probably with a short nap wrapped in.)

No smokes today.  So far not a single puff.  Sinking.

Things to ask, after you ask "Am I Going to Die Soon"

Note to Self:

Fill out your 5 wishes.
Ask for referral to cancer nutritionist.
Ask for referral to cancer support group.

Notes for Doctor:

Make sure LabCorp Only

Can I take Vit. D and Vit. C?
How about milk thistle?

Any foods to avoid?  Coffee?  Booze?

Birth control?

Blood markers for metastasis?

For Surgeon:

Ask about a frozen -section biopsy.
Make sure about clean margins.
Be sure to express that I don't care about scaring, maiming,  dimples.  Get it, and get it all.
Tell her about fast metabolism of pain killers and anesthesia 
How long until results are ready?
How will we know if it has metastatic qualities?
What further tests are needed?
Is it estrogen and/or progesterone receptor positive?
Testing for the C in lymph (sentinel node?), lungs, liver, etc.?
Surgical options - lumpectomy, mastectomy?
When will I go to oncology?


For oncology:

Port in chest?





 

Diagnosis

I had some biopsies last week.  It's Breast Cancer Awareness month and I did my mammogram because I found some lumps.  They are usually nothing, but this time, I wasn't so lucky. 

I got my diagnosis this Tuesday.  It hit me kind of like a mac truck.  First I told my husband.  Then called my boss, because I am practical like that.  Next Facebook, because you have to tell your friends and that's the quickest way to spread news:

October 9th:

So yeah, I have cancer. Hopefully they will be able to just cut it all out.  

The good thing about being a Professional Pessimist(tm) is you are not overly shocked. (Actually, I think I might be in shock.) Don't you worry (but please keep me in your thoughts), I will beat this minor disturbance in my cellar structure. I am going to miss coffee and booze and cloves, but those are probably the things that lead to this. 

Love you all. Mean it.

Later I went to lunch with very good friends.  That was good.

So far, all I know is this:  

I have G1 tumors that are ductile and local.  They are in a centinal node.  

Appointment with the surgeon on Thursday.  So far I have purchased and am reading 2 books.

A Survivor's Guide to Kicking Cancer's Ass and a book about whole foods for cancer.

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That's all I've got so far.  My body hurts, I am tired from lack of sleep, by boob still hurts from biopsy (1/4th of my breast turned black and blue.)  I'm pissed.  I need to quit smoking, coffee, and booze all at the same fucking time, and I am pissed.  

Onward into the void.